22 December, 2014

It's been a long time since I've re-read my older blog posts... and dang, the amount of wisdom I have in minute moments of time - that I then forget or fail to head to - well, it amazes me. It's also 'funny' to see how I code or word certain times and/or events - so that I know that in which what I am writing about - but that others will not.

Some of my favorites:

Sometimes burning forests aren't entirely bad... (AKA the ballerina just dumped me - thank G-d!)
Proud to be an American (AKA how the heck could anyone deny saying the 'Pledge of Allegiance'?)
Domine Iesu Christe, Fili Dei, miserere mei, peccatricis.
“I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be.” (AKA Go Hayden!)
The Hypocrisy In Us All (AKA Yo Daddy is a Douche Bag...)
So, turns out if you're going to ignore medical advice... (AKA I just spent a week in the hospital because I ignored medical advice for 10 years)
On Turning 27...
5 Days Before Turning 28
Depression Came To Visit Me One Day

02 December, 2014

Even though our journey may be fraught with tribulation, the destination is truly glorious.

Trusting in our Eternal's plan, when we don't have a single inkling what that plan is - is hard. But, we are I AM commanded to do such. (reminder to self!)

This is something I have to remind myself each and every day... (oh heck, let's be honest, it's more like a million times a day!).

My favorite book of the bible - Habakkuk, even tells it so:

 Habakkuk 2:3 For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. 

Seems easier said than done... and why yes, Heavenly Father, it seems entire centuries of slow, but I will wait.

It seems especially hard when the journey seems tireless, unending, and frivolous.

Kneeling in prayer, I am constantly reminded that I must make His glory my desires - not hope my desires are His glory.

Overanalyzing any and every inkling of hope. Finding hope where hope shouldn't exist.

Waking up nightly from the nightmares that may very well be my reality .To attempt finding comfort in something that may never be. Knowing the odds are against my hopes - no matter how hard I pray, wish and hope.

I'm not afraid to share the truthfulness of sorrow - because I know that there is somewhere, a light.
I'm not afraid to express my hearts aches - because I know that others feel alone in theirs too.
But Heavenly Father - this is one period of waiting that I admit, is taking all of me to not throw my hands in the air and say "I give up" (but I won't). 

Here's to waiting for that glorious destination.
(And selfishly hoping it's with you).