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Domine Iesu Christe, Fili Dei, miserere mei, peccatricis.

I was certain that I had written a blog during Holy Week last year - and what I had experienced. However, much to my dismay, apparently I did not. 



It's amazing how fast time truly 'flies' - that an entire year has flown since I was sitting at Trinity Episcopal in Staunton, Va with my then boyfriend, Alex. It's incomprehensible all that has transpired, taken place and become since this time last year -but what's more, it's beautiful how far my walk has grown in the year since.

Sitting in the church - I had no idea what was to come. I had remembered (vaguely) growing up, my favourite service was the "boom" service (Maundy Thursday) however I did not remember what the service actually entailed. Thus sitting in the dark sanctuary, my nerves were everywhere, as I anxiously awaited what would eventually become one of the most pivotal and life-changing moments of my Christian walk.

All I know - is whatever happened during that service - transformed my heart…

Just as lotions and fragrance give sensual delight,

... a sweet friendship refreshes the soul. Proverbs 27:9

Heavenly Father consistently reminds me, through the blessings, of the purpose (in the seemingly in the moment purposeless), trials or hardships.

As I have previously mentioned - we are warned of this - so is it fair that I be reminded that he has a purpose in these moments? Or is it just one of the many gifts, that Heavenly Father has bestowed upon me, because he knows I may have struggled harder than the man next to me - to always accept and understand.

I am grateful for whatever reason it may be - because, even for the moments that are so hard - I attempt to find the meaning (even if no meaning was intended).

It helps me to keep my chin up, and to walk forward - press on - even when life feels like hell, and I want to give up.

My spiritual journey was in a serious drought for the past couple of months. While I had been 'religiously' attending church (in fact, more than ever) - I had gotten cought up in that 'Reli…

“While we have been pursuing God he has been rushing toward us with reckless love arms flung wide to hug us home.” ― Ken Gire

As a Christian - even one who regularly reads the bible (which speaks over and over, that G-d will in fact give us times of trial & struggle & pain & hardship) - it's so 'easy' or done without thought - that we turn our back on the gospel when life isn't easy. When things get tough - when we experience something that seems 'unfair'.
[2 Corin 4:17-18"You see, the short-lived pains of this life are creating for us an eternal glory that does not compare to anything we know here. 18 So we do not set our sights on the things we can see with our eyes. All of that is fleeting; it will eventually fade away. Instead, we focus on the things we cannot see, which live on and on." John 15:18-19"If you find that the world despises you, remember that before it despised you, it first despised Me. 19 If you were a product of the world order, then it would love you. But you are not a product of the world because I have taken you out of it, and it despise…