28 March, 2013

Domine Iesu Christe, Fili Dei, miserere mei, peccatricis.

I was certain that I had written a blog during Holy Week last year - and what I had experienced. However, much to my dismay, apparently I did not. 




It's amazing how fast time truly 'flies' - that an entire year has flown since I was sitting at Trinity Episcopal in Staunton, Va with my then boyfriend, Alex. It's incomprehensible all that has transpired, taken place and become since this time last year -but what's more, it's beautiful how far my walk has grown in the year since.

Sitting in the church - I had no idea what was to come. I had remembered (vaguely) growing up, my favourite service was the "boom" service (Maundy Thursday) however I did not remember what the service actually entailed. Thus sitting in the dark sanctuary, my nerves were everywhere, as I anxiously awaited what would eventually become one of the most pivotal and life-changing moments of my Christian walk.

All I know - is whatever happened during that service - transformed my heart, turned my soul upside down, and lifted my spirit to a height it had never been prior. I've since that Thursday - anxiously awaited this Thursday, 2013 - hoping to experience a 10th of the amazingness that I did last year - but also knowing that I could never expect nor compare what transpired last year, to reoccur.

When things (that I haven't, nor doubt I shall) happened with my church home here in Frederick, MD recently that left me 'churchess' - beyond the several obvious reasons, I was bummed that I would miss such an amazing service with that church. For some reason, my spirit likes the 'old church' feeling - I know that Christ is in our hearts, not a 4 wall building - but sitting in the traditional Catholic or Anglican church speaks much more than perhaps the newer white buildings.

Watching the alter be stripped - the cross covered - the lights off, no alleluliah's, no closing or blessing, the priest coming out after the alter had been stripped, and knealing before the alter of Christ, to begin the watch... It is something that I can not put into words, nor translate the feelings and emotions that overcame me - but it was, as I said, the most amazing, spiritual experience I had ever had.

I remind myself - and those that may read this blog - that today, is the day that Christ shared his love to the world - giving the gifts of his true oneness - his blood and body - that the remainder of the year, we should be so luck to partake in during the communion sacrament. As someone who truly believes in transubstantiation, tonight is a constant remind of what that amazing gift we receive during Eucharist truly is.

Lord... Jesus Christ, have mercy on ME, a sinner

Hebrews 10:11-14 And every priest stands daily at his service, offering repeatedly the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins.12 But when Christ[a] had offered for all time a single sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God, 13 waiting from that time until his enemies should be made a footstool for his feet. 14 For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.

John 6:35 Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.