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A letter to the future me's

I wrote this letter two days before I turned 18, about feelings I had felt about the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day saints, that I had been baptized into on August 23,2003.

Every day, of every year, not a day has passed that I didn't somewhere, somehow bring up the topic of 'mormons' or religion. Whether in hate, despite, love, or any other plethora of emotions.
I share with you a nearly 8 year old letter... that ironically holds great beauty and truth still today.

Future, whether you be my great grandchild, or my 2nd cousins nieces daughters boyfriend, or whether you are my own children or husband. I pray that you know the truth. That you know of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, that you are an active member, an that you not only believe these things, but LIVE them. If you have read this whole journal, you know how disgusting my past has been, and this is only a small portion of it. However, Faith in Jesus, the Christ, changes everyone, it changed me…
"You know how I did it? This is how I did it, Anton: I never saved anything for the swim back..."

Today, as I went for my 'Sunday long run' (which actually seems to be progressively getting shorter...) I was scared of trailing from that which I know very much, because on Friday's run I ended up very very lost in 'my town' and ended up expelling way too much energy in the beginning not realizing I was going to be running so far, and at the end, was crying in miserable knee pain.

As I went on this road called Shookstown Rd, that seems needlessly un-ending; and even more so, it's an unending uphill battle towards a 'mountain'. I guess I didn't realize this when running it, because I was full of adrenaline, but when I finally turned around because I knew that I didn't want to be running 5 miles uphill, to have to only turn around and run 5 more (even if downhill)... well, when I turned around I realized "oh wow, I'm on a 'mountai…