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And some things are over Some things go on Part of me you carry And part of me is gone

How the hell can so many things intertwine and mean nothing, and yet mean everything?

I walked away from my oldest daughter's softball game tonight - so proud of her.

Dang - she's amazing.

I worry about her though, I hope I don't have to. I never thought I would have to - and now, unfortunately, I wonder if her tender heart may have been so overshadowed by others needs(who are still are in just as much need and pain still), that she's struggling so much now.

But yet she's caught between trying so hard to be the strength of the world for others and being just a kid who never got a chance to be a kid. I've seen that pain in others, and it worries me that I am starting to see it in her. My heart aches that I am the reason.. the cause.

But I can't blame myself.

I can't.

I mean...I can. But I have to somehow forgive myself and somehow do what I can to seek to get my children the help and assurance, security, and life that they can have and deserve, despite t…