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Lord, restore the joy I had I have wandered, bring me back In this darkness, lead me through Until all I see is You

I am in love with this song!

At the end of December, I thought it would be a good idea (per someone’s “awesome suggestion”) to drive to South Carolina. Exhausted from not having slept the night before, I got in my car at 11am and drove til I arrived at about 7pm. Fast forward an hour or so, and I turned the car around to go home (Maryland). Minus a brief stint where I pulled over for an hour to try and sleep (Which I didn’t really), I drove through the night. After, may I remind you, not sleeping the night before.

To say I was overwhelmed with exhaustion and emotion was an understatement.

At about 4:00 am, a half an hour prior to getting home – perhaps it was delusion from not sleeping or perhaps it was being overwhelmed with the emotion of heartbreak – something in me compelled me to ‘re-give’ my life to Christ.

I never wrote about the experience – because though I had such a profound commitment in that moment, my spiritual walk has been slacking lately (as I’ve written about).

But the amazing thing about being a Christian – is that Christ never leaves us, abandons us, or turns His back on us…
even when we’ve done those exact things to Him!

G-d, I'm running for Your heart

Till I am a soul on fire