30 November, 2014

I'm gonna make you famous...

"So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love." 1 Corin. 13:3

I'm gonna make you famous
Tell 'em all about you
Gonna all know what your name is
All over this town
I'm gonna make you famous
Tell 'em all the whole truth
Don't you know what goes around comes around

I first heard this song, after the end of a church sermon.
 I had never heard it before - and thought it was a 'Christian' song -
until I looked up the music video and then realized what the lyrics were saying.

But what's stopping us (me) from making Christ famous?


12 November, 2014

I get through. I'm getting through. I'll get through.

There's a new man in my life.
No, not that type of man.
[Oh the jaded comments I could make about others moving on that fast... but I digress*.]

And actually, it's not a man.
It's a WO-man.
 And whoah - truly I should say more like a "WOW" man.

I was always under this pretense that in order for me to seek a 'paid friend' - they had to be ridiculously educated and schooled. They had to have a PhD -  had to be male - and couldn't be faith based.

I know. Completely odd.

And yet since the 'incident' - I  have been seeing a paid friend that is quite the opposite.
She's a woman - has a masters - and she is Christian.

But seriously - the most amazing thing she has helped me learn since I began paying for our friendship?
The value of me.

Now - professionally, I know it. I rock it. In fact I oft refer to myself (though sarcastically) as a 'bulldog' in my field because I am pretty dang confident in what I do.

But in my day to day life? Syke!

And while I have a heck of a long way to go - after all, who is perfect? - I have already grown and learn more than I thought I could in a month.

Some nights? Some nights, I don't cry now.
And yes, it hurts seeing above-mentioned things* - but I survive now.
When my brain wants to force myself into an endless circle of times past, regrets, or worries - I ground myself now.
I get through. I'm getting through. I'll get through.

So - for what it's worth - paid friends aren't all that bad!