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“While we have been pursuing God he has been rushing toward us with reckless love arms flung wide to hug us home.” ― Ken Gire

This was originally posted March 19, 2013. But it's one of my most favorite posts - my most 'real' convictions - and findings of the Lord. As I continue to grow and search for Christ in my own every day life - whether mundane or great - I love these moments where I so strongly knew....

As a Christian - even one who regularly reads the bible (which speaks over and over, that G-d will in fact give us times of trial & struggle & pain & hardship) - it's so 'easy' or done without thought - that we turn our back on the gospel when life isn't easy. When things get tough - when we experience something that seems 'unfair'.

[2 Corin 4:17-18 "You see, the short-lived pains of this life are creating for us an eternal glory that does not compare to anything we know here. 18 So we do not set our sights on the things we can see with our eyes. All of that is fleeting; it will eventually fade away. Instead, we focus on the things we cannot see, which live on and on."
John 15:18-19 "If you find that the world despises you, remember that before it despised you, it first despised Me. 19 If you were a product of the world order, then it would love you. But you are not a product of the world because I have taken you out of it, and it despises you for that very reason."
John 16:1-4 "I’ve told you these things to prepare you for rough times ahead. They are going to throw you out of the meeting places. There will even come a time when anyone who kills you will think he’s doing God a favor. They will do these things because they never really understood the Father. I’ve told you these things so that when the time comes and they start in on you, you’ll be well-warned and ready for them."]

But - we were far-warned. More so - we were fair-warned, so that though our minds may not be capable of understanding -
 there is purpose and meaning.

I write this - so that I can consistantly remind myself - that there's a greater purpose than my comfort at times. Christ wasn't very comfortable in the garden of Gethesanme, or carrying his cross, or being crucified - but he knew that there was a far larger purpose ahead. 
So who am I to ever dare think my trials are not in fact gifts that are being given to me.
Or gifts to someone else.

I look back at so many of my hardest trials - and see from them, all that has been able to transpire, all that I've been able to become, to experience, to gain - because of these such hard times. 
I spent so long begging and pleading with G-d for him to change my circumstances 
when G-d was so kindly giving me circumstances to change me.

I'm never going to be perfect 
- thank goodness -
because I am human.
And I accept that.
I know that I am going to still be guilty of wanting to understand,
when I wasn't made to understand everything.
But I just remind myself
(and perhaps another friend or stranger),
that regardless of anything,
Christ died for us,
and that is the ultimate gift and sacrifice,
and the only thing we should need ever require.

"Raise your eyes so you can see
You're right where you're supposed to be
It's dark so you can see the light
And it's hard so you can know it's right
And rain nothing ever grows without you
And hurt is just a chance to heal
And tears are just a call to feel
And pain beauty's just a word without you
Beauty's just a word without you"
-Rachel Lampa, 'Beauty's Just a Word'