25 August, 2013

Kind Atheists over Hateful Christians

I struggle with the fact, that those who have been most helpful to me in my life, most willing to land their hand (or the shirt off their back), or do good in this world; are atheist.

... I hope that I am a good example of what Christ taught me to be. I am surely grateful for the 'atheists' whom I love and care about, and whom love and care about me as well.


16 August, 2013

“They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.” ― Andy Warhol

Considering I grew up in a "Smiths & Jones" type area; where people constantly engaged in the competition of latest trends, most expensive cars, salon & spa days like they were as necessary as food in the belly...

I am pretty dang impressed with the way 'we all' have grown up. We grew up to become many things; top 40 recording artists, National Geographic photographers, mothers & fathers, acclaimed attorneys, sought after doctors. Many things.

But what strikes me the most; is that we grew up, and for the most part, we broke down the barriers that kept us entrapped; and instead cultivated a personality, and a society, of love and acceptance.

And that my friends, is something I never thought in a million years, I would say about those from Severna Park, Maryland.

But I am, I can, and I am proud to be able to do such.

Love comes in all shapes, sizes, and ways.
And I am proud that I can say that, I, despite my many shortfalls & character flaws;
helped contribute to that love growth.

I have struggled with 'writing about this' for quite some time. Not the Severna Park thing; but the idea that I am 'okay' with the 'Gay' marriage. Because I feared upsetting my (few) supporters that supported me thinking I was something, someone, or supportive of, something I am not. 


This has nothing to do with my personal beliefs. Those beliefs, support love, endorse love, and place a very specific call to action on REQUIRING love.  [Matthew 7:12, John 13:34-35, and oh so many more]. 

It's odd; because I went from this 'anti everything political', to a slow progression of
accepting politics.... to hearing Michele Bachman speak (and thus being inspired to read the constitution) and getting involved in local/state/national politics (but still maintaining a individual analysis of things, even during the Nov.'12 elections)to after the election (and feeling so 'crushed), that I got far too wrapped up in things... Small Town Stupidity, that I (admit) I went off the 'conservative deep end', and became a sheep. 

And, in one of my strongest "Sheeple" moves, I allowed my heart to be filled with pride; pride that I was ever better or "less of a sinner" than anyone else. I allowed my heart to be filled with hate "of the sin". I allowed my heart to be filled with judgement. I was quick to hate, and slow to live. I was quick to judge, and slow to empathize. I was far from understanding. It was as though I just turned on a light switch one day, and the feelings that I had felt so sincere about (that homosexuality was no less, no more a sin and G-d still loves everyone); became feelings and expressions of hate. 

Something that kept me from (re)joining the Mormon church for SO long, was these strong convictions I had of love for all; and not agreeing with their ostracizing (which they have gotten much better about) homosexual men and women. And yet, with the flick of a switch; I was suddenly okay with 'hating' a group of people... Wow, Blair.

This caused a lot of heartbreak in my life; friendships that were the world to me, broke (as they should have), because they could not accept my hate. Two of the longest friendships, one with someone I had since I was 5, and another since 10th grade. All I can say, is that I am sorry; but truly, the apology is not due to them, but to the people I ever extended anything but love to.

I can not be ashamed that I am fulfilling the commandment to love, that my personal beliefs (Christianity), have called me to do. And I refuse to 'scoot' around things, or purposefully not say things, in any capacity, whether in digital/social media or more traditional/in person methods. 

I need to be okay having my own beliefs, that 'work for me' (that I always say, they work for me, not necessarily everyone); in all things. Politics, Religion, Music Preference, Hobby Selection. I also need to be okay with things that may not normally go 'hand in hand', do so for me. I do not need to vote, or believe, or follow, or listen or do, in a manner, merely because it's assumed of me. 

I am a Christian,
 I was called to love, 
and that means love all
(The only thing, that should ever be consistent).

10 August, 2013

Blair Pettrey and G-d loves you with no exceptions!

May I remind my readers, how much I love my church. I love my church, because my church is based on the gift of love; which is given to us (so we believe) by our savior, Jesus Christ.

 And we do not discriminate on who gets that gift.

I am slow to seeing this amazing article, but I share it with you late. A town in western New York was hit by with a wave of vandalism throughout their town one evening, including the town's Episcopal church: the person wrote in big letters, "Can I still get to heaven if I kill myself?". After brief discussion, the church decided to respond in such a way:


A member of the church spray painted a 'reply': "G-d loves you with no exceptions!"

Just one of the many reasons I love being an Episcopalian!