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It's not easy to dance with a devil on your back...

so shake it off.
What a song... I was looking for interpretations for "Lord of the dance" (the song, not the musical dance), when I discovered the Florence song with these lyrics... How ironic that the entire song (florence's) be about me right this very moment.
When we are in the darkest parts of life (as in, "it's always darkest before the dawn"): it's hard to see where any good lies... but if the following people + MANY!!!, weren't in my life, I would have choked & gone overboard by now.

Without the love of my family: not just my (beyond amazing) mother & step'boyfriend/dad/"Keeper": but including my sister (and her amazing girlfriend who is like a sister to me), and my brother and his amazing fiance (who is going to be a sister to me), and the love of my (beyond perfect and forgiving) children, without the love and support (even in non-obvious, voluminousness ways)of my ex-husband, and without my bosses' who heck are s…

On finally listening to my darn convictions...

Many years ago - I remember after my son was born - I wanted to find my 'religion' (relationship). I had been through many faiths/non-faiths/journey's (as still, 5 years later, I have been) - but I felt convicted to go in a direction - but as I do so fervently well, I ignored the prompting entirely.
9 months ago - whilst sitting in the 'lite' version of it- I had that similar prompting and conviction - quite strongly, so much so that it was hard to ever 'enter' into that place - whether it be for church services or for other events/meetings.
I promised the biff (bff plus an 'i' since she is bff with eeeeeveryone, but only biff with 'i'.!) i wouldn't go all "jesusXcore" crazy on her - but the reality is, (as it is unfortunately so easy to do) when I've entered the true lows of lows in my life - I've searched out that relationship the most - and that's what has gotten me through each and every hard time. I wish I cou…